She kept the grocery
lists of a time
when there was more
than just a her
and a him
going shopping
alone at night
At a 24-hour store
where the floors looked greasy
but were only dirty
and stained
between the aisles
from muddy shoes
and dropped goods
rotting tomatoes
sat beside the
bruised strawberries
and they all
smelled sweet
to them
back then
when there was more
between them
than just a she
and a he
alone at night
Cat sleeps, curled tightly
against the cold,
in my lap,
purring between naps.
With a jump, is disturbed
by the mid-day wind,
From couch, to tv, to air conditioner
(rushes to a place where she can see)
peers through the blinds.
Leaves blow past the window,
scatter down the sidewalk,
Fall takes a turn at the light
on the corner,
heading for the highway.
Hitch-hiking south
for the winter.
I call cat to return to me,
it has just grown colder.
Emily sits across from her
watching the little woman's shaking hands
as they pour tea
hearing the words of her father,
"You need visit her
there isn't much doubt."
"She doesn't have
much time left."
Emily makes small talk,
looks casual,
pushes a lock of hair behind her ear,
thinks about her cat
as she searches for a subject
anything, anything at all.
The old woman breaks the silence,
"And what lucky man has married you?"
"Oh," Emily says, "none."
"Oh," the old woman says.
"How long were you married?"
Emily asks, sipping her tea.
The ancient woman sits
and pours cream
adds sugar
sips herself
when she says;
"Fifty eight
Stick legged little girls,
my sister and I,
peering through dusty
barn rafters.
On our bellies,
sweaty, summer-baked
skin,
sticking when our legs
touched, beneath the
dresses, mama made
for us.
Mama cries out, like we can't
hear her.
She doesn't know we're here.
Why doesn't she fight?
Shhhh
Papa won't see us.
Hide.
Papa in all his rage
and mama who never
seemed to learn
how to run.
Brother is here, his
movement throwing up the dust
in little girl faces.
His strange leering,
proving,
he took after his father.
Stick legged little girls,
hair the color of hay that
dances with their screaming.
And such little girls
Were you there that day?
Were you with me when the rainbows scattered their gold?
Did you see it, after it fell, how it opened up and grinned like the sun?
You weren't there?
I wish you had been, like you're here, holding my hand.
Its so nice you're here today.
But I wish you had been there to see it that day.
I saw special gold.
I saw what the leprechauns will never catch.
I heard the rainbows laugh maniacally that day.
They scattered their gold that day, you know.
And they laughed because their gold rose up and took to the sky.
It was un-catchable, un-bridled, the real gold found wings.
Were you there that day?
They're gold sp
Tip toes take me through the dark,
my heart the only whisper past
the sound of your breathing
Fingers shut,
and lock the door
pausing momentarily
to sigh
before legs
slip me beneath the covers
and tanned skin shivers to the cool blankets
and the promises
Silent
my mind so far from the still.
The only disturbance
on the water
the only ripple
is my breathing
my sound
my heart beat beginning to rush
The sound of your breathing
makes me quiver.
Forgive me if I'm bothering you tonight.
Hello darkness.
Have you come to take me
this time
upon your back,
between your ebony wings?
To take me from this bed.
The tunnel calls
I can hear it.
Just above the stars,
I would imagine, just beyond the sun.
Bring your skeletal fingers
and comb them through my hair.
Touch me with them,
they may take me.
You're signature is on my dance card
won't you come slow dance with me?
The band went home.
I don't hear the music anymore.
Must you make me wait?
Dare you tease me with the pitch
outside my window?
You are my salvation.
You my Salvatore.
With your black cape and grin,
and sharp, blood stained teeth.
They don't make
Driving by plowed fields
frost-dampened gardens
weeping trees, hung low with snow
Reflections over the lakes
cast about slick ice and winter
No guard rails to block a careless fall
Slippery over the roads today
on my way
toward Christmas
Frosty windshield wipers
calling retreat
against the snow
"Do you think that the stars will come out papa?"
"They're always out, but you can't always see them shining. I think you'll have to pretend tonight."
"But what if they never come back?"
"I just told you honey, they're there. Maybe tonight the clouds will clear and we'll be able to see the North Star."
"But what if the clouds never clear and I won't be able to see mama up there?"
"Do we really need to see the stars to know she's there?"
"But I miss her... I spent some time with her. Do you remember daddy?"
"Yeah, honey, I remember, she used to read to you when you were inside her."
"I can almost remember daddy… te
He stepped outside. He went to his truck and opened the door, squinting at the light. He dug out an old box of cigarettes, long hidden in his glove compartment. He had promised her he had quit. He had quit for her. He tapped his lighter and smacked the box against his palm. He took out a cigarette and rolled the end between his fingers before setting it, caressingly, between his lips. He lit the end and took a drag, the warm smell of summer night, ending with its rough taste. He took another and fought the cough to get rid of it. He had always hated the taste. He looked at the stars, the smoke exhaling from his nostrils. He didn'
She kept the grocery
lists of a time
when there was more
than just a her
and a him
going shopping
alone at night
At a 24-hour store
where the floors looked greasy
but were only dirty
and stained
between the aisles
from muddy shoes
and dropped goods
rotting tomatoes
sat beside the
bruised strawberries
and they all
smelled sweet
to them
back then
when there was more
between them
than just a she
and a he
alone at night
Cat sleeps, curled tightly
against the cold,
in my lap,
purring between naps.
With a jump, is disturbed
by the mid-day wind,
From couch, to tv, to air conditioner
(rushes to a place where she can see)
peers through the blinds.
Leaves blow past the window,
scatter down the sidewalk,
Fall takes a turn at the light
on the corner,
heading for the highway.
Hitch-hiking south
for the winter.
I call cat to return to me,
it has just grown colder.
Emily sits across from her
watching the little woman's shaking hands
as they pour tea
hearing the words of her father,
"You need visit her
there isn't much doubt."
"She doesn't have
much time left."
Emily makes small talk,
looks casual,
pushes a lock of hair behind her ear,
thinks about her cat
as she searches for a subject
anything, anything at all.
The old woman breaks the silence,
"And what lucky man has married you?"
"Oh," Emily says, "none."
"Oh," the old woman says.
"How long were you married?"
Emily asks, sipping her tea.
The ancient woman sits
and pours cream
adds sugar
sips herself
when she says;
"Fifty eight
Stick legged little girls,
my sister and I,
peering through dusty
barn rafters.
On our bellies,
sweaty, summer-baked
skin,
sticking when our legs
touched, beneath the
dresses, mama made
for us.
Mama cries out, like we can't
hear her.
She doesn't know we're here.
Why doesn't she fight?
Shhhh
Papa won't see us.
Hide.
Papa in all his rage
and mama who never
seemed to learn
how to run.
Brother is here, his
movement throwing up the dust
in little girl faces.
His strange leering,
proving,
he took after his father.
Stick legged little girls,
hair the color of hay that
dances with their screaming.
And such little girls
Were you there that day?
Were you with me when the rainbows scattered their gold?
Did you see it, after it fell, how it opened up and grinned like the sun?
You weren't there?
I wish you had been, like you're here, holding my hand.
Its so nice you're here today.
But I wish you had been there to see it that day.
I saw special gold.
I saw what the leprechauns will never catch.
I heard the rainbows laugh maniacally that day.
They scattered their gold that day, you know.
And they laughed because their gold rose up and took to the sky.
It was un-catchable, un-bridled, the real gold found wings.
Were you there that day?
They're gold sp
Tip toes take me through the dark,
my heart the only whisper past
the sound of your breathing
Fingers shut,
and lock the door
pausing momentarily
to sigh
before legs
slip me beneath the covers
and tanned skin shivers to the cool blankets
and the promises
Silent
my mind so far from the still.
The only disturbance
on the water
the only ripple
is my breathing
my sound
my heart beat beginning to rush
The sound of your breathing
makes me quiver.
Forgive me if I'm bothering you tonight.
Hello darkness.
Have you come to take me
this time
upon your back,
between your ebony wings?
To take me from this bed.
The tunnel calls
I can hear it.
Just above the stars,
I would imagine, just beyond the sun.
Bring your skeletal fingers
and comb them through my hair.
Touch me with them,
they may take me.
You're signature is on my dance card
won't you come slow dance with me?
The band went home.
I don't hear the music anymore.
Must you make me wait?
Dare you tease me with the pitch
outside my window?
You are my salvation.
You my Salvatore.
With your black cape and grin,
and sharp, blood stained teeth.
They don't make
Driving by plowed fields
frost-dampened gardens
weeping trees, hung low with snow
Reflections over the lakes
cast about slick ice and winter
No guard rails to block a careless fall
Slippery over the roads today
on my way
toward Christmas
Frosty windshield wipers
calling retreat
against the snow
"Do you think that the stars will come out papa?"
"They're always out, but you can't always see them shining. I think you'll have to pretend tonight."
"But what if they never come back?"
"I just told you honey, they're there. Maybe tonight the clouds will clear and we'll be able to see the North Star."
"But what if the clouds never clear and I won't be able to see mama up there?"
"Do we really need to see the stars to know she's there?"
"But I miss her... I spent some time with her. Do you remember daddy?"
"Yeah, honey, I remember, she used to read to you when you were inside her."
"I can almost remember daddy… te
He stepped outside. He went to his truck and opened the door, squinting at the light. He dug out an old box of cigarettes, long hidden in his glove compartment. He had promised her he had quit. He had quit for her. He tapped his lighter and smacked the box against his palm. He took out a cigarette and rolled the end between his fingers before setting it, caressingly, between his lips. He lit the end and took a drag, the warm smell of summer night, ending with its rough taste. He took another and fought the cough to get rid of it. He had always hated the taste. He looked at the stars, the smoke exhaling from his nostrils. He didn'
Emily sits across from her
watching the little woman's shaking hands
as they pour tea
hearing the words of her father,
"You need visit her
there isn't much doubt."
"She doesn't have
much time left."
Emily makes small talk,
looks casual,
pushes a lock of hair behind her ear,
thinks about her cat
as she searches for a subject
anything, anything at all.
The old woman breaks the silence,
"And what lucky man has married you?"
"Oh," Emily says, "none."
"Oh," the old woman says.
"How long were you married?"
Emily asks, sipping her tea.
The ancient woman sits
and pours cream
adds sugar
sips herself
when she says;
"Fifty eight
Aw I am so late in updating this journal :( Oh, please forgive me folks and my inactiveness in this account. Granted I do come here every day, check my watch and my comments etc. But, my writing has been suffering over the holidays and I have so much touble submitting anything I'm not entirely happy and proud of. Something I think I need to get over actually... My New Years Resolution shal be to be willing to submit things I am working on and accept critism for what it is. Aw this is going to be a long year.... and I miss my boyfriend :(
Love you all!
Tarahlynn
As some of you may know I am one o the "runners" of a writers group up here in northern Minnesota called The Jackpine Writers' Bloc. We put out a literary journal every year called The Talking Stick. This year our call for submissions has reached its deadline and the book of submissions is on each of our desks, to be read waiting to be sifted through, waiting for a mark of a "+" a "-" or a "?". On the 26th we editorial board members will meet and, eventually, decide this years content for The Talking Stick thirteen. So, one more thing to think about in my life. Another thing to plan, but I don't mind, this is my fun time and I'm awfully